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LoulouloulouLOU ([personal profile] soulstar) wrote2005-07-08 09:32 am
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The waiting game

Came home here last night to try to get a decent sleep. Which I did, so that's good. Just spoke to Mum on the phone: Dad is still holding his own, which considering that they originally thought he wouldn't last til yesterday morning, is a good thing. Sort of. Still doesn't mean there's any hope of him recovering. Just that he's being his usual stubborn self.

Telling people is the worst, I think, or having to talk to them about it over again. In person or on the phone, that is. Typing it out like this is kind of helping. My brother has done most of the telling, but even so, meeting my aunts and cousins up at the hospital has been seriously emotional. The other cousins who haven't turned out yet are just too far away, though Ray might be bringing my aunt Mary down from Blackpool today. Dad's other two sisters were there as soon as they could be yesterday, and my eldest cousin, Malcolm, drove straight down from Norfolk. His Dad, my uncle Ted, has altzeimers, so there's no point telling him.

On the plus (you know what I mean) side, Ally was brilliant yesterday, and kept me company all day long, after feeding the Xandermog in the morning and bringing me the daft stuff I'd forgotten the night before, like my toothbrush, etc. And huge hugs to [livejournal.com profile] tamaranth, [livejournal.com profile] angelchildr, and [livejournal.com profile] julieva for chatting to, and distracting, me on AIM last night. As for all you guys who've left a comment on the last post, or dropped me a line via text or email, I really really appreciate it more than you know. THANK YOU!

And now I really should get myself going: Dad will be having more tests about now, and after that we might know if a "decision" can be made. I haven't asked what the either/or of that decision is, but I understand that surgery might be a faintly possible option now, whereas it wasn't before. But again, his chances or survival / recovery are minuscule. I don't want to hope and then be dashed down again, but it's difficult not to. Well, I guess I'll see how it goes.. nothing else to be done, really!

*hugs flist (and anyone else passing by)*

[identity profile] rune-vampyr.livejournal.com 2005-07-08 09:00 am (UTC)(link)
Oh NO!!

I'm so very sorry, love - I've only just read about your Dad. Needless to say my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family at this time.

*Hugs you really tightly*
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[personal profile] kangeiko 2005-07-08 09:05 am (UTC)(link)
Oh my god, honey. Oh my god. *hugs you tight* You're in my thoughts. The doctors have been working miracles this week, and I hope that they bring you one too. Take care, my darling. *love*

[identity profile] tamaranth.livejournal.com 2005-07-08 09:15 am (UTC)(link)
{{{hugs}}} you and celebrates your dad's stubbornness -- not something to pin all your hopes on, but it's not over yet and there is hope.

I'm thinking of you. Call or text any time.

[identity profile] ladymoonray.livejournal.com 2005-07-08 10:43 am (UTC)(link)
I'm still here for you if you need me. I'm not doing much over the weekend, so give me a call if I can do anything.

I'm so glad Ally was with you yesterday.

*hugs*

[identity profile] urbanfae.livejournal.com 2005-07-08 12:45 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs tight*

[identity profile] angelchildr.livejournal.com 2005-07-08 01:23 pm (UTC)(link)
*looks around sneakily*

*tiptoes up behind you*

*CUDDLESOMGCUDDLES*

*smiles* I'll be around today and all this weekend, on and off. If/when you need me, come find me, yeah? :-)

[identity profile] lunamorgan.livejournal.com 2005-07-08 04:26 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs tight* We're working on something for you...not telling what, but we are. We're secretive bastards you see.

I wish I could be THERE for you instead of just there for you. But I'm around most days, if you need extra talking.

*more hugs*

[identity profile] astaria51.livejournal.com 2005-07-08 04:55 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs* I know you've probably heard it a dozen times, but here's once more -- I'm here for you, if you need hugs, to ramble, be distracted, anything.

I wish I knew something better to say or do, or could help, at least so that you wouldn't have to worry so much yourself. Make things magically better, you know? :\

*gives you tea (coffee? what's your poison?) and snuggles*

[identity profile] train-in-vain.livejournal.com 2005-07-08 06:05 pm (UTC)(link)
We love you very much, Lou. I've been thinking about you.

[identity profile] julieva.livejournal.com 2005-07-08 06:36 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm here to distract you or listen, darling, any time, night or day.
Love you!
*samwise extra special cuddly hugs*

[identity profile] sanda56.livejournal.com 2005-07-08 07:00 pm (UTC)(link)
So sorry you and your family are going through such a rough time. :(

*hugs*

[personal profile] kittynic 2005-07-09 08:24 am (UTC)(link)
I have no words, only *hugs.*